My precious little Deo!

This is a letter to you so I can say what I didn't get to tell you before some monster murdered you in your own yard. I want you to know that as soon as I got out of my car and I saw you weren't there I knew in my heart something was so terribly wrong. I called and called for you frantically and when I got to you, you were already gone. Donut came around the corner and I saw something had gone after her too. You were so feisty. I'm sure you put up a fight. Bryan came running as I was screaming for him to help me save you. When I picked you up I realized holding you, you were already gone. I had you all wrapped up in my arms and held you while Bryan let everyone know what happened. He checked over Donut and after we were sure she would be ok, I rocked you on the swing while I told you goodbye, my little baby. I love you so much. It was so hard coming home today and knowing you wouldn't be chasing me into the garage then jumping into my lap for a big kiss on my face. It broke my heart

Walking through the house not to hear your toe nails tap tap tapping behind me everywhere I went, and when I ducked into a closet knowing you weren't out there searching for me. I told Bryan I'll have to watch my weight now that I don't have you to sit up on my lap and beg for anything that even remotely looked like food to you. I slept on the love seat because I couldn't bare the thought of not having you on my feet when I would go to roll over last night. I want you to know that we know Donut tried to protect you and that she is sad too. Whatever dog came into the yard and stole you from me left in worse shape than it bargained for. Donut is fine and has been here with me since. I pray that you didn't suffer and even though words can't express how awful I feel, you know how much you are loved. I will hold all our memories close to me heart until the day we meet again. You were my little chubby chub and even though right now my heart is broke, I know someday we will meet again at rainbow bridge and my heart will be whole once again.

So, for now I say goodbye, my sweet little Deo.

~ Stephanie

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Posted March 7, 2008